Getting Past the What Ifs

It is a New Year and time for me to think about what I might want to do with my life in 2012. 

Due to some recent conversations with an old friend, I have decided I need to try to get past the "What Ifs" that run through my mind all the time.  I sometimes get very obsessed with these thoughts and I think they keep me from moving forward.  

 

I need to learn to move forward,  

Since I am someone that obsesses over things and then analyzes them over and over again, I may not be able to get past some "What Ifs," but I also know that it is not healthy to obsess over things that cannot be changed.

Happy New Year!

2012 is here. A New Year, and time to look back and reflect and then move forward.

I am having a lot of trouble with the looking back part right now.  Tomorrow would have been my 30th anniversary.  Jan. 2 is always hard on me, but this year it is even harder.  

Dreams I had in the past of course cannot come true.  Regrets and doubts regarding decisions made have formed a large lump in my chest and are making it hard to get a good breath.  

Some hopes I had for the future have changed, and I need to work through the knowledge that some things will just never ever be possible.  

Time to make new dreams and push through all the things from the past.  All of that easier said than done. 

I wish I wasn't a person of what ifs.  

I know the new year will bring some amazing things into my life, just as 2011 did, and I will do my best to welcome each new challenge and change.