The Universe is Kicking Me in the Rear

When I said I wanted to spend this year "finding me" I did not mean I wanted to find myself in just a few weeks.  I was planning a gentle search with lots of thought.

Evidently the Universe is tired of me goofing around and has decided to kick me in the rear.

Randy lives in northern KY across the river from Cincinnati.  Last night when we were talking about me being without a job, he mentioned something about how big his church is and how they are always looking for staff.  I just laughed, but I knew he was trying to say he would like to see me.  He just won't use those words because he has promised to be very patient and not push me in any way.

Last night I listened to a message from my aunt saying she really needed to talk to me and to please return the call as soon as possible.  After we had chit chatted a few minutes she told me that she wanted me to escort her to Cincinnati in July to a family wedding. As she was laying it on thick about how it might be the last time she could see her sister, and how long it had been since I had seen the family, etc., all I could think about was how the universe was kicking me in the rear. I told my aunt about Randy and the coincidence of her call.  She was immediately excited and telling me just how we could work out the details and as I listened I felt myself pulling back into my shell and thinking "too scary, too scary."  

I feel like the Universe is kicking me with steel toed boots.  First it was my youngest basically saying "do what will make you happy" and now a trip that would put me right across the river from Randy.

I don't know if I can go in July.  I will really have to think about it and conquer a lot of fears. 

In the meantime, Randy is jumping for joy and keeping his fingers crossed.  

I am going to try to keep a very open mind, but I might have to tie a pillow around my waist so the kicks from the Universe are softened a little.