Bad Case of the Should Haves

This week I am suffering a bad case of the “should haves.”

I should have taken better care of Raymond.

I should have looked harder for a cure for Raymond.

I should have made his favorite meals more often.

I should have taken him to other cancer hospitals.

I should have done more.

There should have been something else I could have done for him.

I should have kept my mom from signing another lease after Raymond died.

I should have moved mom in with me a year earlier.

I should have been more aware of what was going on with my mother.

Etc.

It is like a never ending loop in my mind right now.

It will get better. It is just a really rough time.