Made it Through

March 3 was Raymond's birthday.  I did pretty good getting through it this year.  Just teared up once. 

He never wanted much of a fuss over his birthday, so it wasn't missing the celebration that made me sad. It was that he died at the peak of our life together and we won't grow old together like we planned.  

I did have to laugh Tues. morning when I was putting my shoes on and realized I was doing it like Raymond used to do and I always thought was strange.  

Now I just have to get through Mom's birthday on the 6th.