I have not seen a hawk since mid April when I started talking to Randy. I find it very unsettling.
The youngest has seen the hawk on the pool fence during the day when I am at work, so I know he is still around.
I haven't seen a hawk flying in any of the fields when I am driving, or on any of the poles where I usually see a hawk. I have been looking, because I noticed right away when I stopped seeing the hawk.
What does it mean? I discussed with my friend at lunch the other day. It could mean that I am finally doing what Raymond wanted and moving on. That theory makes me sad and happy at the same time. Happy that I am doing what Raymond wanted and not letting him down. Sad because I feel like I am losing a special connection.
I hope the hawk is not gone because he is disappointed in me. That worries me sometimes.
I miss seeing the hawk.
The youngest has seen the hawk on the pool fence during the day when I am at work, so I know he is still around.
I haven't seen a hawk flying in any of the fields when I am driving, or on any of the poles where I usually see a hawk. I have been looking, because I noticed right away when I stopped seeing the hawk.
What does it mean? I discussed with my friend at lunch the other day. It could mean that I am finally doing what Raymond wanted and moving on. That theory makes me sad and happy at the same time. Happy that I am doing what Raymond wanted and not letting him down. Sad because I feel like I am losing a special connection.
I hope the hawk is not gone because he is disappointed in me. That worries me sometimes.
I miss seeing the hawk.
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